And he was like, "oh, OK. Well, put some cold water on your face. And it's jarring. Dominique gets their dad to reach out. Since we first aired this story in 2016, the assault charges against Alan Pean were dismissed by a grand jury. It's now 13 hours before the shooting. And St. Joseph is a big downtown hospital. And the IV tubes he's hooked up to? You're on a balcony. Patient Stories Malia’s Story. I would think outrage. Eight years ago, my life changed forever. I ran CEO Mark Bernard's statement, quote, "If it should happen today, they would not have done anything different," by Alan's father. On August 26, the day before the shooting, in his philosophy of science class, lots of people want to be in his study group. You're manic right now. And in most of those cases, the cops who pulled the trigger hadn't received any training in how to deal with the mentally ill. And their tactics escalated the situation rather than calmed it down. Well, I did. His father booked a plane to Houston from their home in McAllen, Texas. Didn't hug them hello. The more risk factors you have, the more likely you are to develop bipolar disorder. Remember, he's morphing into Barack Obama. The man in this story is Michael Kinsley-- writer, editor, known for, among other things, starting the online magazine Slate and for being just a very sharp, funny observer of American politics and human nature generally, including his own nature. Remember, as a physician and familiar with hospitals and how they work, his response is that of a doctor and a father. I'm Ira Glass. I ask him, "Alan, how you doing? I was told that CEO Mark Bernard declined to answer that question. He was not able to focus, to control it. You don't learn everything you can about it. Confrontation, it's the strategy that everything in our culture pushes you toward, fighting it all the way. The week before this happened, Alan Pean was starting his last semester at college, in a new school in a new city. Bipolar and related disorders now have a chapter of their own in the updated American Psychiatric Association's Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-5): ‘Bipolar and Related Disorders’.. An estimated 1 in 50 (1.8%) Australian adults experience a bipolar disorder each year (Black Dog Institute 2018). So better training of the officers in Alan Pean's case might have prevented the shooting. When officers enter those facilities, they check their guns at the door. That's an everyday thing for us. A voice teacher, she said she could hear life it in again. A study last year by the Occupational Safety and Health Administration revealed that there is more violence in hospitals than any other workplace. And it's working. I think they just-- another black guy acting crazy. We had to put on-- we put shoe covers on in order to walk in the room. Because you don't think this would have happened if you were white? When it comes to buying life insurance, an application's approval will hinge on the type and severity of the disorder, and how well it's being controlled. It's just, I still think I'm in shock, that I don't know how to handle it. At this point, I do believe I'm a bionic person. But in this particular case, there was something else that could have stopped this from happening, something simple. Then it was a Code Blue. And it's interesting. He had a taser on his upper chest. Yeah, that's exactly it. When the investigators interviewed St. Joseph's Chief Executive Officer Mark Bernard about the incident, he told them that he stood by the officers. They go into his room and close the door. The surprisingly entertaining story of how the U.S. got itself into a housing crisis. So you get out of the car. The patient started to dance and would not comply. This, by the way, is not standard hospital procedure, I was told. I thought at that point that time elapsed too long and that they're closing in on my position, and they're going to be there any moment. Alan explains why. Mike suggested maybe I was stockpiling a message to myself. I have a high ACE (Adverse Childhood Experiences) score as … I'm Ira Glass. And I was like, who can I trust? This is the moment that we're roughly 20 hours before the shooting in the hospital room. I just want to say, that seems bad. You look nothing like President Barack Obama. Cold water on your face." Many different treatments are available to help a person manage this condition and have a good quality of life. I'm a cyborg. It's the third-story balcony. Adding exercise to your daily routine can help fight the mood swings of bipolar disorder. D. Paul Dalio, American writer, director and composer.He made his feature directorial debut with Touched with Fire (2016), a film which drew upon his own experience with bipolar disorder. I switch back into denial when it comes to the cognitive thing. Yes. It was just this huge, red, fresh gash. I wasn't graceful or even logical about it. Where's the rendezvous point? He's cuffed on the floor? I thought it might be like a hallucination or something. He and his lawyers say he did not attack the officers first but they charged him first, and he responded. The first was in 2008, when he was a freshman at the University of Texas at Austin. First of all, if someone's delusional and two cops walk into the room, it's a normal reaction for that patient that's having delusions, or that psychotic, to react violently. And I look down. It was big. Sometimes, during a manic or depressive episode, it is hard for me to fight my way out of the vortex of those symptoms. I couldn't believe it. So I was like, take a deep breath-- in, out. It's like I snapped back into myself. More than 3.3 million American adults (1.7%) suffer from bipolar disorder in a given year. They had to look at him through a window. And you end up shot. Here are 14 of them. Why can't he do that? Here he is. That I was either a lookalike or someone that could be used as a replacement. Our website, thisamericanlife.org. I was actually shocked. The cognitive issues vary a lot from person to person, and they're still being researched. I acknowledge I'm privileged. Elise Bergerson's our business operations manager. Later, when federal investigators asked Alan about the shooting, he said, quote, "He forgave the police officers. This study explores the association of demographic and clinical features with quality of life and functioning in individuals with bipolar disorder. Yes. And I just see blood everywhere, all over the floor. Bipolar disorder can make everyday activities and life very difficult for the individual. Yeah. Yeah. I had just got back from class. You're unarmed. Then Alan is so incoherent, making so little sense, that the attending physician notes in the chart that he can't get Alan to describe his medical history or even a basic rundown of his symptoms. So I'm talking with my dad, and I call him Pop. In that time, he said, the way he had chosen to use his mind, his deliberate strategy for dealing with Parkinson's, had been denial. Bipolar disorder is one of several mental and physical health conditions associated with an increased risk of developing atherosclerosis (hardening of the arteries) and cardiovascular heart disease. According to the report by federal investigators, St. Joseph is now limited where police officers can go in the hospital to peripheral areas. Then I'm thinking, like, well, wait a minute. But let me say to anyone who cares who's listening that I have not lost my mind. You try and talk to them to see if they're safe to approach or not. Bipolar disorder is a mental health disorder characterized by extreme highs and lows in mood and energy. As someone with bipolar disorder, the writer shares three common bipolar symptoms, in the hopes that being more open about them will help destigmatize them and the disorder. So they just-- they said we're just going to make a little hole. But she just didn't pay attention. So after Alan action-heroes his way down the balcony, he makes his way to his car-- not a direct path, of course. Apartment complex. I heard you say it like that. Things start getting confusing. What was your fear that it would do to Alan? Act Two, "Don't Need to Know Basis.". I don't know how to handle it. According to the report by federal investigators, the nurse confirmed he did ask for a psychiatric evaluation, and she did tell him Alan was going to be discharged. One national survey found that half of all hospitals have tasers. Parkinson's is different from Alzheimer's. I'm a secret agent on a mission to break himself out from behind enemy lines. But it was the choice I made. Or, as Mike has cheerfully written over the years, Parkinson's gives you a decent chance for something else to get you first. We get hit by patients all the time. It's This American Life. And sometimes there had been a lot of thought put into the process. I recognize it as a mania. And I'm like, OK, well, just remember your training. And so that was me. OBJECTIVE. This means that we pledge to work against individual racism, interpersonal racism, and institutional racism in all their forms. It is estimated that 2.6 percent of American adults have this disorder, which translates into around 5.7 million people. The first symptoms typically appear in the late teens or early adult years, though some people may develop the disorder in childhood or later in life. But you know, he gets home, he starts to cook some food, he tries to calm down. He went to the patient's room and saw him lying on the floor on his back with a drape over him. And that's what-- I'm not sure if that was done or not. Yes. Alan and his family told me, their sense of the staff's attitude was, this is just a guy, drunk or on drugs, crashed his car. Just remember your training. Julie Snyder is our editorial consultant. But I didn't think much of it. And he saw another benefit. I admire the courage it took to put yourself and your family's problems out there. The hospital's funding was threatened. You need a suit for that kind of thing. And then I run out, throw my phone into the toilet, and run out into the balcony and close the balcony door behind me. That's where the good guys are. That varies a lot by your background, where you live in the country. Oh, she just didn't pay attention to me. But there are some things we know for sure. You're on the third floor. But Elisabeth looked for that as well by digging through old police blotters, court documents, news accounts, and surveys, and found over a dozen cases, most of them mentally ill patients. This is something a New York Times correspondent, Elisabeth Rosenthal, has been looking into. And I could not believe it. And I really can't handle it sometimes. She's nice. "Really? In this episode of My Life With, we follow two people living with Bipolar Disorder in New York, to show the realities of living between two extremes. And everyone was exchanging emails. We know there was a scuffle. When he chose denial, Mike did feel bad about deceiving other people, not just the general public but also people he knew. But he would not-- I say, "how you doing?" Why are we talking about this? And meanwhile, for you, you were thinking, but I am my edge. It says, when the officers arrived, Alan attacked. And Alan's father asked for a psych evaluation, but he was ignored. And I get to the gate. But dementia is one possibility. Simply warning a patient that you're going to give them a shot can calm them down. And that's because in the past, sometimes this would happen for a couple of days, and then it would go away. It's at the hospital that you're supposed to go to. Elisabeth is also a doctor and has worked in hospitals, but none that allowed guns. So I call him, and I try to calm him through it on the phone to try to relax him. There are many risk factors for bipolar disorder, but here are a few examples: You stay back. So basically, you drove yourself to a hospital. And seeing firearms might agitate certain patients. However, this may be misleading for patients with bipolar disorder in general as most patients have a later onset of illness. As long as that person doesn't have a weapon to harm someone else, why should you have a weapon? Alan says that he tried to tell the ER staff what it is that he came for, that he was having a manic episode. Do you remember why you were going out into the hallway naked? In New York's hospital system, which has several of the busiest emergency rooms in the country, security carries no weapons. You try to live your life and spend your time outside of that world. Maybe that will make it worse. Nancy Updike is one of the producers of our program. And the nurse does that. He would not tell me anything. He gave permission for the hospital to turn them over. Today's program, "My Damn Mind." He is a human. I don't even know what my question is. It gave him eight years of privacy, eight years of relative normalcy. They, quote, "educate him on his behavior and ask him not to remove any equipment.". Right. Yes. The story I'm about to tell you is one that we put together in collaboration with The New York Times, last year. Bipolar disorder affects 5.7 million American adults annually, or 2.6 percent of the population, according to the National Institute of Mental Health, and at least half of cases begin before age 25. And for a bunch of reasons that I won't bore you with here, the way Alan's apartment was locked, the only way he could have gotten out was off the balcony. I have experienced the clear benefits of denial. It's like a blind date. First, on the very same day that Alan was shot, there was another psychiatric patient who was shot and killed at a hospital in suburban Cleveland. But it was all over the floor. I'm Ira Glass. Same room. It's not totally clear what happened inside the room. I took that as code. Little research has examined the impact of the disorder on quality of life in children and adolescents. Nothing else could have done that. A doctor once said to you when you asked him-- I think it was a him-- when you asked him about the cognitive issues associated with Parkinson's, he said, well, you may lose your edge. Our senior producer is Brian Reed. You don't want a patient to grab the gun. Seth Lind is our operations director. And I was like, "what?" The current study examines the quality of life in children and adolescents with bipolar disorder compared with other physical and psychiatric illnesses. Alan could have been given a psychiatric evaluation. They had realized that I was acting strange. And it was more of a biblical-type deal this time, Alan says, a delusion with demons in disguise, and he was on the verge of being sent to hell. Remember, he's just moved to town that month. OK. And they said it's just dime-sized. Coming up, consciously telling yourself things that you know are not true as a way to use your mind and its power. I was expecting an apology. Remember, the ER staff noted Alan's erratic mental state in his chart but didn't get him evaluated. Transcripts are generated using a combination of speech recognition software and human transcribers, and may contain errors. They said, why don't you just go and let him examine you and see if you're suitable for it. Yeah. Research is much less clear when it comes to younger people. The response was that the patient was tasered. Objective: Life expectancy in patients with bipolar disorder has been reported to be decreased by 11 to 20 years. And I don't actually believe it's them. Yeah. Well, it was sort of a slippery slope. They do a CT scan of his head, spine, chest, abdomen, and pelvis, looking for injuries. And that opened my eyes in a way that I sort of never want it to. Bipolar disorder is a serious condition that can be managed with a variety of treatments, but left untreated with no medication makes bipolar disorder more dangerous. You're not ever coming to--. When he asked what happened, he was told the patient was just tasered. And he sees St. Joseph Medical Center, Houston's oldest hospital, and the only one downtown. She thought maybe I was lying. And I basically, from the second story to the AC units, I do a parkour stunt, like jump off of it and then jump onto the sidewalk. Today's program, "My Damn Mind." Alan was briefly hospitalized, diagnosed as possible bipolar and put on anti-psychotic medications for a while. And I don't especially need it now. Why have the number of guns in hospitals apparently doubled in just three years? The patient came out of his room naked four to five times. Here's how that goes down. Schumann to the American actress and writer Carrie Fisher, have lived or live with the condition. But they--. This continues for hours. And I'm going off to my support group. Meaningless coincidences seemed like signals that he was on a secret mission. And I remember the surgeon screaming at the cop to take his handcuffs off. I'm someone with Parkinson's. Alan Pean nearly died. And I didn't think about it nearly as long as I should have. He plays video games with a group of friends from high school, smokes weed, soft-spoken, thoughtful, considerate. Both were by hospital security. The original Trouble Coconut Club is located at 4033 South Judah in San Francisco's Outer Sunset neighborhood, with hours from 7am until 7pm daily. I hate to say it because we never want to talk bad about anyone that we work with-- and I wasn't there, but if that was said to a medical professional, then their wishes should have been complied with immediately. These calculations are based on data for individuals at the age of 15 years. They have to do it on the street all the time. And the staffer I interviewed, whose voice we're replacing with an actor's, said you could hear it from outside Alan's hospital room. So he gets off the FaceTime call. But, my life doesn’t revolve around my illness – my illness interferes with my life. Michael Kinsley is a contributing columnist for Vanity Fair and the Washington Post. Music help today from Damien Graef and Rob Geddis. Take a left, and there I am. The original Trouble Coconut Club is located at 4033 South Judah in San Francisco's Outer Sunset neighborhood, with hours from 7am until 7pm daily. It gets lots of trauma patients, lots of mentally ill patients, some homeless people. My goal is to work as hard as I can to minimize the effect bipolar disorder has on my life. I couldn't tell it to them because I didn't know who exactly they were. Among the elderly, bipolar disorder represents 5%–19% of the mood disorder presentations to psychiatric care .Studies show evidence of cognitive deterioration in the longitudinal assessment of older patients with bipolar disorder and greater cognitive impairment in older than younger patients .There is growing evidence of cognitive dysfunction in euthymic mixed-age patients . Get out. He wrote in his New Yorker essay that the kind of thing you'd want people to say about you, looking back, would be something like, "he was 102 years old when he was accidentally shot by a neighbor and still sharp as a tack.". He starts to panic. That's a kill shot, so that's-- I don't think too much about it. What 2020 Taught Me about Life & Bipolar. I told the nurse that I'm a physician from McAllen, internal medicine. That's all she said. And he said he tried not to lie outright. Both were psychiatric patients. What, my football training? I'm at the hospital. form of mental illness that causes severe psychological instability And when class ended, they made a plan to meet over the weekend. Correct. AMY GOODMAN : Well, every year some 44 million Americans experience mental illness, of which almost 6 million are diagnosed as bipolar. The edge is-- that's me. There is a controversy about which particular spot in the brain you should go to. Bipolar disorder is a serious condition that can be managed with a variety of treatments, but left untreated with no medication makes bipolar disorder more dangerous. I cook dinner and then I clean up after dinner. It's too dangerous. And when Elisabeth Rosenthal heard about Alan Pean, she wondered how common this kind of thing was. Just take the damn cuffs off him.". If you're lucky, you have good friends and close relatives who are going to help you get through it. He was like, "take the cuffs off now. I was expecting 100% an apology. He's made it his cause, both his public cause and his personal cause. That's terrible. When asked what other interventions could have been used by the security staff, the CEO said, quote, "if it should happen today, they would not have done anything different.". Alan comes from a family with a lot of doctors-- his dad, his uncle. And I'm saying that. Schumann to the American actress and writer Carrie Fisher, have lived or live with the condition. So that would've prevented this whole thing? Even in his psychotic state, Alan wore a seat belt. We know the cops were not in that room for long, a few minutes at most. Lots of hospitals now have police and ex-military doing security with guns. The one national survey on this subject found that about half of all hospitals now allow guns. So I'm trying to play on the game, but it's like my wires start getting crossed. And I was like, "oh, OK." Well, I get anxious kind of often, too. Production help from Lyra Smith. You were the test about whether they were getting it right. And he was not writing to confess or apologize or to vow not to engage in denial in the future. He's alive and talking about what happened. As I began my taper of the final drug just this past November, and just as importantly, as I had truly shed the brace of the bipolar identity that had become a prison, one of my best, oldest friends told me on the phone that my voice had changed. He'd just moved to Houston two weeks before, anxious to do well. This post speaks to me. That's what they do. I had a moment of clarity. And you're able to drop one floor down and catch--, Nothing happened. Current professional basketball player for the Melbourne Boomers of the Women's National Basketball League in Australia. Only Christian, the oldest son, thought it could happen to him. Pregnancy can also complicate both the progression and treatment of the disease. But that's a perfect example of something I didn't research but that many people would and do. Michael Kinsley is a contributing columnist for Vanity Fair and The Washington Post. It might make no sense when you look at it later. And he knows what I need to do in order for my circuits to calm down. I don't understand it. We have Alan's medical records. He's totally withdrawn. And I don't know why he would shoot me in the chest unless he was trying to kill me. But what he cannot understand is why police officers were in his room, when he was an ill patient trying to get well.". Find out how to start an exercise program you can stick with. That's it? (11 minutes). That's all you remember of the accident? I acknowledge that. It just keeps arriving at the wrong answers. And I start running. His argument was, when it comes to serious illness, like with all terrible things that happen to us, sure, yes, the goal is to get to acceptance-- eventually, if you can. The hospital referred this and all of our questions to an outside crisis manager they work with named Rhonda Barnat. I live with Bipolar disorder. And let's get right to it. There was some there. Officer Ortega, fearing for his and his partner's safety, then discharged his duty weapon, striking the subject one time.". In fact, when his father texted him the day of the shooting to say that something had happened-- Alan was in the ICU, they didn't know what happened yet-- Christian's first text back was, wait, what? And what are your friends seeing? But I thought, well, this is how they do it. Yeah. But some people, it may cause psychosis, actually, because that's part of the side-effect-- confusion, dizziness, psychosis. And I look down, and there's these two AC units down there. But the best person in the world's sympathy is going to be limited. But they need someone to speak out as though the government is still functioning as normal. I f you have bipolar disorder, you may worry about your chances of getting a reasonable life insurance policy.. Life insurance with bipolar disorder may not be offered at the best rates in some cases, but you will likely not be turned down for insurance because of it.. Bipolar disorder is a common condition, affecting over 5.5 million Americans every year. So he called me at 10:00 PM. It slowed the progress of the physical symptoms which then allowed Mike to continue his project of exercising however much denial he possibly could at every stage. According to the DSM 5, Bipolar I Disorder is characterized by one or more manic episode or mixed episodes (mixed episodes involve mania and depression) accompanied by episodes of depression alone (without mania or hypomania). As Mike's symptoms progressed, bit by bit, some tremors, some stiffness, he told more people, bit by bit. And it's interesting. I just don't understand. So he didn't see anything wrong. 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